Vent

I never thought I would have a "normal" pregnancy. I knew I would be worried a lot, have to take a lot of supplements and medication, possibly endure bed rest, be financially and emotionally ready for anything and everything. But I wasn't prepared for making it to full term, and still being miserable. I really thought that making it to full term, I would be elated with joy. I was, for a minute. But now, instead, I have to still endure strict bed rest and now have the fear of developing pre-eclampsia. I have to look forward to laboring and delivering lying down again. I have to worry about going on magnesium sulfate again immediately after delivery. I might, therefore, not be able to hold my baby right away and start bonding and breastfeeding, as I imagined I would. This is all exhausting to think about, as I have nothing else to do in bed. It's wearing me down.

Still on bed rest...

Just got back from my appointment! I actually had to go see my OB at the hospital in triage, because everyone decided to go into labor today and she couldn't make it into the clinic. No changes. All my labs were normal, and Thumper was happily thumping away on the monitor with a strong heartbeat. My BP is still high sitting, but normal lying down, so I am on bed rest until Tuesday when I will be induced. If I don't deliver before then! I had a few doozie contractions this morning, and lots of pelvic pressure.

I found out that I will have to labor and deliver lying down again. I had to do this for Alden because he was so premature. Now it is because of my high blood pressure. I am not looking forward to that! I am sending myself vibes for a fast labor.

Update - visit to OB today

It was reassuring to see my regular OB today, and I am now back home on bedrest. My bp was still high at 140/70, but not as bad as last week. I has an NST and AFI, and passed those. She checked my cervix, and I am 3 cm dilated and 80% effaced. My cervix is so ripe, that I could go into labor on my own at any time! The plan is to see her again on Thursday for another bp, NST, AFI, and blood and urine labs. If everything still looks good, then I get to stay pregnant until next Tuesday at the latest. Then she will induce me, because that's when she is on-call and she doesn't want me to be pregnant past 39 weeks. I will be 38 weeks and 3 days then. So baby will definitely be here within the next week! :)

We made it to full term!!!

Happy 37 weeks!



I realize this is not the most flattering picture of me, but I just have to document the day. I am big and tired and in bed all day - so big that you can barely see Alden in the picture! I literally got up for a minute, took the picture, and went right back to bed.

My 24-hour urinalysis came back negative for a significant amount of protein. So still no preeclampsia, which is a relief. I see my OB on Monday, and will discuss my risk for developing preeclampsia. I am so scared of preeclampsia, that if my risk is really high I might just consent to being induced. When I read that some women with preeclampsia need to be treated with magnesium sulfate immediately after delivering, my heart dropped. I simply can not go through that sheer hell again. I am pretty scared. The good news is that I have complete trust in my OB. I will do anything to avoid being "magged" again.